Ever get to a point in your life when you feel like everything is falling into place? That the life you always thought you wanted was finally manifesting. I met a guy that was looking for the same type of commitment I was, had a stable job with a great schedule and decent pay, lived in a great apartment in a great city, I even adopted a great dog. Great, great, great. But then little by little the cracks started to show. The relationship wasn't growing the way I imagined, the job was becoming insufferable and even the dog started acting up.
I started to look at myself in a negative way. Looking at myself as a failure in all these areas but I realized that my body got used to the shift. I keep telling myself that things came to a halt to remind me of something I have always been good at. And that is knowing when I needed to move. When I needed to grow or maybe look at things from a different perspective. When I was younger I used to stay in situations longer than I needed to, and now and the first gut wrenching feeling I already know to move because if I don't it will be taken away from me whether I was prepared to lose it or not.
My lease is almost up and I was ready to pack up my things and leave again. Just like I did when I decided to leave Vegas. But I don't want to run anymore. Or even escape it by hiding anymore. I decided to renew my lease and I even joined a facebook group where I can meet girls I can share life with. I realized the only thing I failed at was not only at creating a good life. But actually living it. If I hated my job then I would find a better one, HERE. If my relationship was not working out then I would either end it or fix it but remain HERE. My life doesn't have to start over because the job changed or the circumstances changed, Being a flight attendant, I got used being able to just get up and leave when and where I wanted to which I loved but not being a flight attendant taught me to endure changes in the same place and start over in the same place which I loved as well.
Failing forward is the ability to get back up after you've been knocked, learn from your mistake, and move forward in a better direction" - John Maxwell
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